When you look back upon your life and what you have accomplished you see all of the happy, funny, embarrassing, hard, difficult, and unbearable times. Some of which you though never would end and some of which you wished they wouldn't.
Things Happen.
Plain and simple.
It's written there in black and white.
Clear as Crystal.
You remember the funny days where you pretty much did nothing but it felt like the best day ever.
You remember the times when you cried, or something drastic happened and it feels like the hurt will last forever.
You have times that you regret.
Words you wish you had never said.
Things that shouldn't have started but did.
Things you can't undo.
mistakes that make you feel like a fool.
And at the end of the day none of it matters.
Now that might sound strange and a Little misleading, but it's true.
To a point. that is.
It does matter in the sense of the moment or from a learning perspective but at the same time it doesn't because it doesn't matter what happens.
What DOES matter is how you react or respond to it.
Things happen there are trials all around us.
Some of them happen because they have to and they are supposed to.
and some happen because we caused them to happen.
WE have the power of Choice and agency.
It is the power that our Heavenly Father Gave us.
He gave it to us because He trusted us.
He has high expectations and expects us to give our all.
And our all is what we must give.
We must stand as a Witness of God at all times and in all things and in all places.
We must Have a light shining from within.
We must live our standards and respect others as much as ourselves.
I am not saying that things are all wonderful and that trials are nothing because I know as much as the next person that Trials are never just nothing. They happen. They exsist. and there is nothing we can do about our hardships but face them. Face them head on. strong and courageous. With Faith and with an open heart. Trials make us learn. That's what they are here for. Sometimes they come one at a time and sometimes that's hard enough and God knows that. And sometimes they come all at once. Never ending. Always coming. and sometimes it feels as if you can't understand why? and you can't see the finish line as easily.
Sometimes you just fall to your knees in humility and ask for the pain to go away... just for a day. and sometimes it happens and sometimes it stays....
Im not saying that my life is super hard because compared to others it isn't....
but to me sometimes it's' just a lot to handle.
I can handle it (because God NEVER gives you something that you can't handle)
But sometimes i just don't want to handle it.
I want to go back to the days when my biggest problem was learning to add or spell.
And some days I want to go back to certain trials and change the way i acted, change the words i said, and the words i didn't say.
And Some days i just want to write down all my frustrations and talk to my friends and read my scriptures all day long.
And some days i just need to think.
Thinking is what i do to clear my head.
to keep me sane.
To keep me on the right path.
When you think things through you see the consequences and the eternal perspective.
One day I will find my long lost prince and we will be married for time and all eternity in the Temple.
One day I will have a family and a daughter who i will share all of my experiences with, in hope tat she won't make the same mistakes.
One day I will know all the answers and all of the reasons why.... which is all i ever wanted.
And One day it will all make sense.
Its not just foggy day or week that makes your life, your life.
There May be foggy days or weeks but there are Sunny months and years that make the journey worth it.
The music playing in the background is what you make it.
Don't be the one playing depressing music while staring out the window wondering when will my love return... *cough cough* (Twilight) haha Be the one that sings about the adventures and All that you've done. with simply no words at all just showing a slide show of your life that's enough. (up)
Live your life to the fullest.
Sincerely optimistic...
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