so i have this certain dilemma
three boys
one me
one i want
he's not there
do i really want him though?
all in one day...
i went to ice cream with one
held hands with another
and the other professed his love to me
I'm at a lost
either way i lose
i can't handle it
i can't make everyone happy
i can't be the one they really want
what i really want is to just be free
no strings attached
i want to be able to see whoever .. whenever
i don't need to be told good morning and goodnight
i don't need rich and glamorous
i don't need to be told im beautiful
i don't need a shadow
i need to be alone
i need to be myself
i need to figure things out
im in highschool
i don't want to ruin friendships
i don't want to be marked as someones property
i want to be free
i had a chat with a new friend
we talked of love and realtionships
we decided those thigns on facebook that describes the perfect guy aren't really for the guy
we decided that thos things are there to look at and be more of a checklist
but once you actually have those things, it's not the things that make you happy but the person.
all three of these boys make me happy
they make me feel special
and they care about me i can tell
but right now i can't care for them
i can't be theirs
i can't be the one who gives all my attention to them
i can't be the person they want me to be
i need to be myself
i need to just date and be happy
i just need to forget about people and care about me
i can't be the one to pick up their self esteems
or the one to listen to their problems
that seems to be all i have ever been for people
and honestly im done
i want someone to like me for me
not just because i listen to them
i want to be able to not care about my weight or hair or clothes
i want to wear sweats and come back from running and still be the same person to them
i want to take walks by myself and not be asked what's wrong
i want to be able to think for myself
i dont want to be asked whats wrong when nothing is
i just want to float in the wind and be able to land where im supposed to
one's a company, twos a crowd, and threes a party
i just need time
it's almost midnight and my fairytale may just turn into a nightmare
Sincerely,
Cinderella didn't prepare me for this one...
