procrastination

You see i am a procrastinator. i have learned this recently. it is not a good trait i have and i never bother to fix it because i think hey eventually i will. not the best mind set but hey i never get around to it. i am working on my poetry portfolio that is due tomorrow for beesons class. i had most of it done except for writing the actual poems i only did about half of them actually.... you have to be in the write mood to write i have learned that lately and whenever i feel like writing or i have an idea i never have paper so it doesn't work out very well. so i have been writing poems all weekend while working on math and chemistry extra credit that i am still not done with......... all i have to do is finish writing poems and then i can be done then i will do my chemistry and maybe some of my math homework and study a bit but i really don't want to...... i kind of just want to quit school and become a Disney princess and live in a beach house and just play my way through life.... but i know that's not going to happen no matter how much i want it... i know life takes work and we all learn to work at school.... but school doesn't realize that sometimes i don't have time for it all the time and sometimes i need an extra break or maybe just a little more time.... but that won't happen now will it? so i am just an over worked teenager at this point who fears getting my report card because then i will see how much my effort actually got me.... even though i was wanting so much more... oh well that's life what can you do but just go with it. try my hardest i really do but there is only so much you can try before all your energy is gone and you just give up cause there is no way out..... but there are those rare second chances but you have to look for them. and search your heart and soul. oh well i better get back to my homework now... although this was a nice little break..... i will hopefully be alive tomorrow and hopefully awake... although probably not i will just act awake but truly my eyes are close and i am taking a nap in my head.... so don't wake me until we meet again i bid thee farewell.