staring off into the distance

silence
words unspoken
feelings unknown yet known
a stranger yet i feel like i know you
just a stare but it feels like a connection
just a moment but i wish it were forever
just a slight chance but its worth trying for
just that one word... look... feeling
and suddenly you've got me wonder struck
confusion yet surety
peace and serenity
for that moment its just me and you....
and that's all i will ever need...

peoples mistakes and heartbreaks

so many people i know are getting married
 it's weird
its unsettling
its too soon
but it's also not my place to say anything
i love them all
i care about them
and i support their decision
but that doesn't mean i agree with it
what happened to the days in young women's when they taught
"support young men to go on missions"
"dress modestly so they can avoid temptation"
"be virtuous"
"be an example"
"have the goal for a temple marriage"
"strive to be sealed to your family forever"
"priesthood holder"
what happened?
why is all of this happening?
again?
does everyone just want to be independent so soon
that they just want to throw their lives away?
I'm glad they are getting married but have they ever
stopped to think of how they are going to pay for everything they need?
or want?
what about their education?
their jobs?
minimum wage isn't going to cover everything
i love them
i care for them
and yet this shock isn't going to go away
i have known for three days
i found out before his brother
now what?
whats next?

poems and life all mixed together

to those summer days of fun enjoyment
bliss
endless woe
and love
to the ones i miss
to the ones i kiss
to the ones i love
to you my one true dearest friend
to the days of frustration
to the days of glowing ends
i will see once more
eventually....
i need to just remember
but i also desperately need to forget
but why?
why must i force myself to act one way and not the other
to be someone Else's fallen daughter
to be the one with words unsaid
to be the one who's living but feels so dead
I'm lifeless but free
flying but earthbound
all over but still
I'm different
yet the same
closed but open
silent but out spoken
I'm confused on all those rainy days
and even on the bright and warm summer ones
so here's to you..
my life's true poem
my life's true feeling
and my life's one meaning

honestly i just dont care

this one is for you... you know who you are