Today i went to church (of course half an hour early)
feeling the spirit and just pondering my thoughts...
then people start to come in and of course people talk and such
and its fine and everything that's church
you socialize
but what i don't appreciate is people using
VERY inappropriate language
in the House of the Lord,
especially when you shouldn't say those things any way....
i sat their shocked. turned away from them...
not shocked that they would say it
just shocked that they would say it there.
i sat there in disgust, and anger, and i felt betrayed.
this is the place you can go and get away from the world
and yet the world was there.
they opened the door to the outside and they felt fine with it.
but i wasn't and never will be
then we had an amazing sacrament meeting
(despite their remarks and there horse play)
It was on the atonement.
they gave amazing stories of conversion, hardship, and love, and trials.
the husband and wife that were supposed to speak.....
the husband only spoke,
(he spoke for both of them actually) and let me explain why.
his wife's son (his step son) that morning had overdosed on drugs.
he had fallen away from the church
he had made mistakes in his life and choices that were not right
but has been trying to change them.
he has been addicted and when you are addicted to something
its obviously hard to quit.
they got the call at 10 this morning that he was in the ER
they went to see him
he couldn't speak and was ultimately lifeless.
all he could do was move his head.
his muscles were stiff
he was alert and there but
barely living.....
the looked and all his step dad could say was do you want a blessing.
all he could do was look at him in the eyes and nod.
how must that be?
to make such a mistake and to be in a situation
where all you can do is humbly nod because you can not speak.
The thing was the boy in the ER
he was supposed to go to church today and hear the talks prepared.
He wanted to turn his life around.
He wanted to listen to them. but he didn't' get to because of his choices.
while his mother sat with him during church
her husband came and told us his and her words.
he told of the situation that morning
of how he met his wife and how he wanted to marry her
but had to wait 5 or 6 years.
he spoke of his wife's husband who left her alone
and there six children fatherless
he spoke of his divorce to his first wife.
and he spoke of repentance and how it's for all of us
no one in exempt
the atonement was always meant for everyone
but not everyone uses it
whether it be pride or guilt.
it was meant for everyone.
and i am glad that i can repent of my sins.
because believe it or not.
I'm not perfect.
not even close.
I know that, and i wish i was but alas....
no one is....
Except for Our Savior.
He was perfect and he always will be.
He made it possible for me,you, and everyone else in this world....
to be forgiven.
to be clean.
to be as white as snow instead of crimson red.
then in young womans we learned how to smile.
sounds a little odd but it's true.
we looked in this mirror as she read questions.
What do you see?
Who do you see?
What do you feel when you look at yourself?
questions like that. it was amazing.
She talked about what really makes people happy
and what causes unhappiness
it was truely profound!
it was amazing!
she taught it in such a way that
made you feel the spirit and really think about yourself.
She made you realize that we are all special
and beautiful daughters of God in our own special way.
it was an amazing spirit filled sunday
with many life lessons and truths to it.
it was a wonderful humbling day.
I am glad i got to go to church and have the opportunity to every sunday.
I would be lost in the world without the gospel.
i have seen what the gospel brings into my lfe.
and I know I would not be even close to the same person without it.
lets just say i once saw "myself" without the blessings.
and i realized what i had and i have cherished it
and i always will.
don't take what you have for granted
you don't want to wake up one day and realize you threw it all away.
Make good choices.
Know Who You Are and What you stand for.
because knowing who you are changes what you do.
Sincerely,
I have the potential to be Perfect....
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