don't know what to say, expect, or want anymore...

i just need someone by my side i need a friend who understands
what happened? i just need you....  but I'm too confused to ask
i don't want to say i need you
i want you to know i need you.....
for future reference most of this stuff has nothing to do with one another
 just saying  but it's about a few specific things
 ya life just pretty much doesn't feel real at the moment

i want answers
i hate not knowing why
common sense
doesn't anyone have any of that anymore??????
my life is just turning into a big lie
why  you may ask? because people are lying
inside of it if that makes sense
i just wish somethings never happened
and somethings i never knew
and somethings i never want to know
i wish i had been smarter about my choices but i haven't been
and i pay the consequence everyday
but although my mistakes affect other people i never intentionally
do things to harm or do recklessly
I'm sorry if they have
idk everything's a jumble
i want a redo
but that will never happen
i need to stop before i bring up my past life
" its a quarter after one and I'm all alone and i need him now." 
i just want my prince charming 
SINCERELY,
sometimes i just feel like a Taylor swift song
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btw this is my sonnet for English 
 

1)seeing a life of questions with much rebel
2)I'm looking and searching yet i stay still
3)lies and mistrust i feel so unsettled
4)why couldn't they tell us? the truth is real?
5)why are they gone so lost in damnation
6)living there life as free as one can be
7)but still they are unwinding unto our nation
8)there lies and lost integrity all to see.
9)irresponsible and yet i trusted
10)how could i have been so gullible to believe
11)that everything ended as what it must
12)wishing i had never had to see
13)what i only dreamed of the serious fright
14)had to be my nightmare tonight