poems and life all mixed together

to those summer days of fun enjoyment
bliss
endless woe
and love
to the ones i miss
to the ones i kiss
to the ones i love
to you my one true dearest friend
to the days of frustration
to the days of glowing ends
i will see once more
eventually....
i need to just remember
but i also desperately need to forget
but why?
why must i force myself to act one way and not the other
to be someone Else's fallen daughter
to be the one with words unsaid
to be the one who's living but feels so dead
I'm lifeless but free
flying but earthbound
all over but still
I'm different
yet the same
closed but open
silent but out spoken
I'm confused on all those rainy days
and even on the bright and warm summer ones
so here's to you..
my life's true poem
my life's true feeling
and my life's one meaning