Saturday, July 7, 2012

who new?

I went i drove and i had my little vacation
it started with the drive endless and tormenting
we swam at my grandparents and had Sunday dinner with my cousins
they told me that my cousin (who is my age) went to EFY
he was there but no saying anything for they were teasing him about this
girl he had met from American fork i asked for her name
i knew who she was
she defiantly knew who i was
she was the comfort zone project girl
the girl who took my picture
of all red
the one who made me think
the one who made me angry frustrated and upset
she was the one who hurt me
i told him about the experience
not to make her sound bad because he needed to make his own choice,
about her and i just told him what had happened between me and her
he look paralyzed in shock
he looked as if he had seen a ghost then he looked upset
sad in a way but upset in another
i told him it was no big deal that everything was fine
i told him to do whatever he wanted to
and that's exactly what he did
i never knew someone could care so much about family
someone would risk everything for one person
when i told my mom about the girl and what had happened she said
 isn't that the point of the project?
and she was right that was the point of the project
i realized a lot over that week.
too much to write in a post
but my cousin he cared
(not that my mom didn't it's just that he went the extra mile)
he explained he was my cousin and demanded an apology from her
and not just from text
he made her call me
i didn't know about any of this
he had left the house about an hour before
and my family was visiting some old friends when i got the call.
i saw the area code and wondered who would be calling me from Utah...
i answered they asked if i was Sabrina and i said ,"yes... who is this?"
they told me... in complete shock
she gave me the most sincere apology i had ever heard in my life
through the course of about ten minutes of talking and explaining
we settled things
i never hated her
i was never really that mad to be honest... i was just confused on why....
and then i realized it for myself
people do things not for themselves but for others to see themselves
but what  you do affects how other people see you.
on the verge of tears myself after hanging up the phone i just stared in shock
and realized family cares and family matters more then anything else but
on the same line family must have the mutual feelings towards one another
if there is conflict solve it... talk it out.... dont assume everything will be ok with time
it won't be it will only get worst 
trust me... i would know....
but it doesn't matter that she apologized
it matters that he cared more about me and my feeling more then his own 
he could have just blown it off
he could have just ignored it but he didn't
he did this on his own too
no one preassured him into doing it
it was all his choice
and he didn't care about what anyone thought because he cared more about family then some girl
i wish all family could be this way
but everyone has the choice of where they stand...
and i know where i do and that's all that matters
i have never been so proud
i have never felt so loved
and i have never expected that out of someone...
if only all guys were like that....
but they aren't so we just look for the ones who are
Sincerely,
changed by a moment in time



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