Sitting worlds apart

Here we are...

 At a guard competition of all things ...

 And guess what seeing you just makes it worse.

Knowing that everything isn't the same

knowing that things are different

and seeing that you really don't care it just more than I can handle.

 And here I am sitting in Emma's lap wishing that things didn't have to be like this.

 I don't know what to think anymore

in fact i really don't want to think anymore

  I have thought enough

and you know what it's just not worth wondering what ifs anymore

 and buts or thinking rude thoughts ...

I have been a jerk and I will admit that

all I can say at this point is that I can't look at you

and see the person I thought you were...

I thought you were better than you actually were

 that may sound mean but thats not what I mean

 I mean that i thought you were my prince my fairy tale 

 in (high school) of course

 but I put you on a pedestal

and thought you were my dream

but guess what you turned Into

my nightmare

sincerely,

please just wake me up....